Pessimistic Wishes

Sometimes I really wished I didn’t

Want to know what was behind the curtain

And know that Machiavelli was not a rapper

Wished reality tv was authentic

Wished I could just shut my brain off

And drink a whole bottle of liquor

But being me, being sober is the highest one can get

If I could look at the sky and see dead people

Look across from myself and see a smiling face

Maybe I’ll smirk a little more

Maybe I’d be grateful for this place

If I didn’t see traps in beauty

Perhaps I wouldn’t obscure my view

But if I didn’t think despicably

I’d probably think like you